Feeling a bit sleepy. Gonna rest in a mall parking lot.
The Sears inside is a bit creepy. How I got here I forgot.
I don’t know where I’m going. I don’t know anybody in this town.
The old people at the hostel are annoying. I guess I’ll just keep driving around
Grocery shopping at 11:30
There’s no crowds and there’s no food
Hanging up above the milk and dairy
Is a cow that’s lost it’s moo
They’re playing XTC’s “King For A Day”
It’s not a song that they usually play
Sitting alone in the car eating a pre-made Cobb salad.
I bought two though I didn’t want to. The discount wouldn’t work without it
I remember laying on my bed when “It’s Not Easy Being Green” came on.
It got to me, sobbed uncontrollably, but I felt fine when the song was done.
My friend said that I look sick
Although she never was very nice
And as I sit freezing in a blanket,
I think Fuck, she might be right.
And will I feel again true love?
Or will I just drive aimlessly looking at stuff
And taking pictures of
Treat myself to some sushi and sake as I read a book.
The waitress comes up to me. Dessert menu? Sure, I’ll take a look.
I remember Alan Choy at Martuni’s. He played “The Rainbow Connection.”
I sang every line with 20 others beside. I really needed that moment just then.
My childhood home is now a Subway
I don’t know how I feel about this.
The thing that never was is drifting away
As I stare into the abyss.
And I don’t understand how I continue to wake up.
And when you think about me, am I eating donuts
Or taking pictures of
Long ago, I milked a cow but I don’t know it’s name